Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Who are the Two Witnesses of Revelation 11?

On Easter Day the veil between time and
eternity thins to gossamer.
DOUGLAS HORTON

There are a variety of interpretations out there in regard to the symbol of the Two Witnesses. At WLC we firmly believe that when He gave us the prophetic symbols of Daniel and Revelation, they were not meant be understood in many ways. For this is a call for confusion, and our loving Father is not a God of confusion (1 Cor.14:33 ). But the confusion often comes from failure to understand the dual applications of many of the prophetic symbols.

The Two Witness are identified in verse 4 as "two olive trees" and "two candlestick". These symbols are drawn from Zech. 4:1-6, 11-14. There they are said to represent "the anointed ones, that stand by the Lord of the whole earth." Unlocking the spiritual meaning of the olive trees and the candlestick in relationship to the two witnesses, can be seen in the following quote:

From the two olive trees the golden oil was emptied through the golden pipes into the bowl of the candlestick, and thence into the golden lamps that gave light to the sanctuary. So from the holy ones that stand in God's presence His Spirit is imparted to the human instrumentalities who are consecrated to His service. The mission of the two anointed ones is to communicate to God's people that heavenly grace which alone can make His word a lamp to the feet and a light to the path. "Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, saith the Lord of hosts." Zechariah 4:6. {Christ's Object Lessons, page 408.1 }

Since the fullest expression of His spirit is contained in the Scriptures of the OT and the NT, it can be assumed that they represent the Two Witnesses. This is the general interpretation of the Two Witnesses (i.e. the first application of this dual application symbol). The first interpretation of this dual application symbol [The Two Witnesses] is important, and easy to understand. However, it is the second application that is of utmost importance for us living in these last days. Here is our position at WLC with regard to the second application of the Two Witnesses within the context of Revelation 11:

-The Two Witness represent the faithful army of our Loving Father who are being prepared now to give the last call to the fallen world, during what is know as Loud Cry period, which will last 42 months or 3.5 years (verse 2 ). During the Loud Cry His faithful will be aided in their mission by the outpouring of Latter Rain (i.e. the Holy Spirit). This period will commence shortly after the impersonation of John Paul II by one of the Devil's fallen angels, after the passing away of the current pope, Benedict XVI. First on the agenda of the 'resurrected' pope would be the enactment of a universal Sunday Law . In enforcing this universal law, the USA according to Bible prophecy will play a major role. Sunday keeping will be enforeced as the only means for regaining world prosperity.

-During the 42 months there will be many martyrs for the truth (v.2).

-Probation for mankind will close at the end of the 42 months, and the live faithful ones will number 144000.

-The Seven Plagues will commence right after the close of probation, and they will last 30 days (1290-1260 prophetic times).

-During the 6th plague, a universal law for the destruction of His faithful at the end of 3.5 days probation (v.9 ) will be issued, and with it Jacob's time of trouble will commence for His people, the 144000.

-Just when the wicked are ready to destroy the 144000 at the expiration of the 3.5 days ultimatum, the Seventh plague will hit (Revelation 16:17 ) where our loving Father "with a great voice" will declare that "it is done." The end of suffering for the 144000 will take place the second the whole universe is shaken by His voice.

-Then there will be 45 days until the Second Coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (Daniel 12:12 ).

Thursday, December 24, 2009


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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

How can you be certain of your prophecy interpretations?

Every day that you attempt to see things as
they are in truth is a supremely successful day.
VERNON HOWARD

It is not a dauntless task to determine whether a certain interpretation of Bible prophecy is correct or not. God, out of keen desire that we understand His prophecies, has given the necessary keys for unlocking the symbolism used in His prophecies. But those keys are not concentrated in one part of the Bible. But rather they are spread through out the whole Bible.

It is not hard to figure out God’s rationale for resorting to this method. He knows that humans will be blessed by the study of His word. There is power in His word, when believed and acted upon. And to help us dig deep in His word, He hid the keys necessary for unlocking the symbolism used in the prophecies through out the Bible. So, a student of Bible prophecy is compelled to dig deep into the Bible and not overlook any portion of the whole Bible to discover those necessary keys for unlocking the symbolism used in the prophecy he wishes to understand.

We are certain of our interpretation of Bible prophecy as shared with the world in the articles found in our website because we unlocked every symbol by the God-provided keys found in the Bible. This fact gives the assurance. It is easy to spot erroneous interpretations of Bible prophecy when you are familiar with Bible keys for unlocking symbolism. Please review the article again and see how we have come to understand the important Bible prophecy of Revelation 13 about the Beast and his Image by using the Bible keys for interpretation.

End of the world in 2012?

What is your position on the alleged end of the world in 2012 according to the Mayan calendar?

The Mayan calendar is a highly complex system of multiple calendars. One of its many calendars is referred to as the Long Count. The time cycle of the Long Count is marked to end on Dec 21 2012 (some say December 22nd, 23rd or even other dates). This has led to the belief that the world will end on that date, in a most catastrophic manner, with very few survivors.

According to the Mayan calendar we live in the fourth age, out of seven ages in total. This current age will end in Dec 2012. In the fifth age, it is believed that humanity (whatever was left from the fourth age) will realize its spiritual destiny. During the ensuing sixth age, mankind will realize God within. In the last age, the seventh, the believers in the Mayan calendar believe that mankind will be so spiritual that we will be telepathic.

At World's Last Chance we not only find no biblical support for the beliefs stemming from study of the Mayan calendar, we also note distinct contradictions between the beliefs underpinning the Mayan calendar and Bible facts. Furthermore, though we believe that the end is sooner than most people believe, this belief is underpinned by the sure word of Bible prophecy. Unless it has been revealed in His infallible word, then any man-made effort to project a precise date for the end would should be considered as pure speculation and conjecture.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Why we do not celebrate Christmas?

The most important missionary journey a
person can make is to walk next door.
What major reasons does World's Last Chance have for not celebrating Christmas?

Here are our 4 major reasons for not celebrating Christmas:

1. Jesus wasn't born on or near December 25

Most experts agree that December 25 has nothing to do with His birth. The first reason why Christ could not have been born in December is found in a fact mentioned by Luke relating to those shepherds who were "living out in the fields, keeping watch over their flock by night" (Luke 2:8). There is no way any shepherd would be found keeping his flocks outside at night in the kind of weather (very cold and rainy) that is know to exist in and around Bethlehem in December. Such weather argues strongly against the birth of our Lord on December 25, as the weather would have prevented the shepherds to be out in the fields attending their flocks.

Furthermore, there is no logic at all for the administratively skilled Romans to undertake census during the coldest season of the year. Luke informs us that our Lord was born in Bethlehem because his parents needed to register for the Roman census. It makes much more sense to conduct such senses when it is most convenient for the people to travel around, and not be hampered by severe weather conditions. Thus, precludes any birth of Christ on the Month of December.

2. Christmas is not mentioned in the whole New Testament

No where in the whole New Testament do we have a single recorded instance of Christians celebrating the birth of Christ on December 25, or on any other date. Yet the New Testament does mention several details about His birth. More importantly, there is no command by our Lord or our heavenly Father to celebrate His birth. While it is true that celebrating the birth of Christ is not condemned in the Bible, but the absence of any recorded instance of such celebration in the New Testament should not be overlooked or ignored. In addition, it is a proven fact that the early Christian church did not celebrate the birth of Christ on Dec 25 or on any other date.

"Christmas was not among the earliest festivals of the church ... the first evidence of the feast is from Egypt." (Catholic Encyclopaedia 1911 edition)

3. Christmas is a PAGAN festival and has nothing to do with Christianity

The 25th December was anciently celebrated as the birthday of the invincible SUN god, (variously know as Tammuz, Mithra, Saturn, Adonis or BAAL) long before our Lord was born in Bethlehem. It is interesting to note how December 25 became the birth date of Christ. Historians Gerard and Patricia Del Re state the following:

"The tradition of celebrating December 25 as Christ's birthday came to the Romans from Persia. Mithra, the Persian god of light and sacred contracts, was born out of a rock on December 25. Rome was famous for its flirtations with strange gods and cults, and in the third century the unchristian emperor Aurelian established the festival of Dies Invicti Solis, the Day of the Invincible Sun, on December 25.

"Mithra was an embodiment of the sun, so this period of its rebirth was a major day in Mithraism, which had become Rome's latest official religion . . . It is believed that the emperor Constantine adhered to Mithraism up to the time of his conversion to Christianity. He was probably instrumental in seeing that the major feast of his old religion was carried over to his new faith" (The Christmas Almanac, 1979, p. 17).

The pagan origin of Christmas can be further seen with the many customs associated with it--Christmas lights and candles, Santa Claus, Santa’s Elves, The Christmas tree, Holly and Ivy and Mistletoe and the Yule log. These traditions have nothing to do with the birth of our Lord, but have their origin in ancient pagan festivals..

We cannot avoid concluding that Christmas is rooted in ancient religious customs and established by the Roman Catholic Church to ease the pagan converts' transition to Christianity. Today Christmas is driven by commercialism, and the original celebration of Christ's birthday is today more regrettably replaced by the tradition of Santa Claus.

4. Christmas is a Roman Catholic institution: sufficient reason to reject it

As with Sunday worship origin, Christmas is the child of the Roman Catholic Church.

"The festivals of Rome are innumerable; but five of the most important may be singled out for elucidation -viz., Christmas-day, Lady-day, Easter, the nativity of St. John, and the Feast of the Assumption. Each and all of these can be proved to be Babylonian." (The Two Babylons, by Alexander Hyslop, page 91)

"... within the Christian Church no such festival as Christmas was ever heard of till the third century, and that not till the fourth century was far advanced did it gain much observance. How, then, did the Roman Church fix on December 25th as Christmas-day? Why, thus: Long before the fourth century, and long before the Christian era itself, a festival was celebrated among the heathen, at that precise time of the year, in honour of the birth of the son of the Babylonian queen of heaven; and it may fairly be presumed that in order to conciliate the heathen, and to swell the number of the nominal adherents of Christianity, the same festival was adopted by the Roman Church, giving it only the name of Christ. This tendency on the part of the Christians to meet Paganism half-way was very early developed ... Upright men strove to stem the tide, but in spite of all their efforts, the apostasy went on, till the Church, with the exception of a small remnant, was submerged under Pagan superstition. That Christmas was originally a Pagan festival, is beyond all doubt. The time of the year, the ceremonies with which it is still celebrated, prove its origin. In Egypt, the son of Isis, the Egyptian title for the queen of heaven, was born at this very time, 'about the time of the winter solstice.'" (Ibid. page 93)

Participation, therefore, in Christmas would be another way of paying homage to the Beast of Revelation, something that will be most displeasing to our heavenly Father. His people should never be found endorsing any institution which is pushed and promoted by the anti-Christ

Saturday, December 19, 2009

What are your principles at World's Last Chance for the examination of baptismal candidates?

When you come to Christ, the Holy Spirit
takes up residence in your heart. Something
new is added to your life supernaturally. You
are transformed by the renewing of your
mind. A new power, a new dimension, a new
ability to love, a new joy, a new peace – the
Holy Spirit comes in and lives the Christian
life through you.
BILLY GRAHAM
Guiding Principles for the Examination of Baptismal Candidates

1. Do you believe that there is one God, a personal, spiritual being, the creator of all things, omnipotent, omniscient, and eternal, infinite in wisdom, holiness, justice, goodness, truth, and mercy; unchangeable, and everywhere present by his representative, the Holy Spirit? Ps. 139:7.

2. Do you believe that Jesus is the literal Son of the eternal Father before incarnation and the only Saviour of mankind? Have you accepted Him as your personal Saviour for salvation from sin, which He offers through His grace? Will you invite Him every day to dwell in your heart through His holy Spirit. John 1:12-13 ; Galatians 2:20

3. Do you accept the Bible as the inspired Word of God, and do you take it as your rule of faith and practice? 2 Timothy 3:16-17 ; Acts 20:32

4. Have you repented of, and confessed ALL known sin to God, believing that He, for Christ's sake has forgiven you? As far as possible, have you made reconciliation with those whom you have wronged or with those who have wronged you? 1 John 1:9 ; Matthew 5:23-26 ; Ezekiel 33:15 .

5. Is it your purpose, through the power of the indwelling Christ, to live surrendered to God, doing His will in all things, and keeping all the commandments of God? Romans 12:1 ; Colossians 3:17 ; Revelation 12:17; 22:14

6. Will you endeavor to maintain daily communion with God by personal worship in prayer and the study of God's word? Will you support and/or provide family worship morning and evening in your home? Daniel 6:10 ; 1 Timothy 2:1 ; 2 Timothy 2:15

7. Do you recognize your responsibility to share the everlasting gospel with others? Will you commit your life in witness and example, as far as possible, to lead men and women to surrender their lives to Christ? Matthew 28:19 ; Mark 16:15

8. Do you believe in the imminent return of Jesus Christ, that His coming will be personal, visible, and accompanied by the heavenly angels? Acts 1:9-11 ; 1 Thessalonians 4:16-17 ; John 14:1-3

9. Do you accept that man is mortal; and that in death he is in unconscious state, referred to as sleep? Do you believe that at the Second Coming of Jesus, the faithful of all ages will be raised, caught up, and granted immortality with the living saints to meet the Lord in the air? Daniel 12:2 ; 1 Thessalonians 4:13-16 ; 1 Corinthians 15:51-55

10. Do you believe the great message of Christ our Righteousness; that we are justified and sanctified only through His sacrifice and High Priestly ministry for us? Romans 5:1-9 ; Acts 26:18 ; Ephesians 5:25-27

11. Recognizing that obedience is the fruit of the Christ-given sanctification, do you believe that all the commandments are a transcript of His character, and the keeping of these commandments, through the power of the indwelling of Christ, is the evidence of salvation in the saints? Revelation 22:14 ; 14:12; 12:17 ; Jude 24 ; 1 Corinthians 10:13

12. Do you believe that the seventh day of the week is God's holy, sacred, Sabbath day; a day of rest from all secular pursuits and of special worship to God? Do you recognize that God's Sabbath begins at sundown Friday and that every preparation should be made to begin Sabbath with a welcoming worship, and that it concludes sundown Saturday with a worship of thankfulness? Luke 23:56 ; Exodus 20:8-11 ; Isaiah 58:13-14

13. Do you recognize that the Sabbath, as a Memorial of Creation, is representative of the Seal of God, and that Sunday worship is the pagan counterfeit described by the Bible as "'The Mark of the Beast"? Exodus 31:13 ; Ezekiel 20:12, 20 ; Revelation 13:16 ; 14:1,9, 10 ; Genesis 2:1-3

14. Do you recognize that the papacy is the great Antichrist of the Bible prophecy, that it was the great, persecuting power of the Middle Ages, and will again persecute God's saints at the end of time? Do you recognize that the papacy attempted to change the Sabbath and has allowed many pagan errors to come into the Christian church? 1 John 4:2-3 ; Daniel 7:25 ; Revelation 13:1-8

15. Will you practice the Bible plan for the support of God's work, by rendering unto Him the tithe, or tenth of all your increase, and the sacrificial offerings according to how the Lord has prospered you?

16. Is it your purpose to obey the instruction to eat and drink to the glory of God by abstaining from all intoxicating liquors, tobacco in all its forms, all unclean meats, narcotics, teas, coffee, cola drinks, and other harmful substances? 1 Corinthians 10:31 ; 3:16-17 ; Leviticus 11 ; Proverbs 23:29-30 ; Isaiah 66:15,17

17. Are you committed to follow the Bible principle of modesty and simplicity in dress, refraining from the wearing of makeup, colorful nail adornment that draws attention to oneself, so that your influence might reflect the inner adornment of a life that will attract men and women to Jesus? Will you determine to refrain from any lack of dress or style of dress that is out of keeping with the Bible concepts of modesty? 1 Timothy 2:9-10 ; 1 Peter 3:3-4 ; Exodus 33:5-6 ; Genesis 35:2-4 ; Deuteronomy 22:5 ; Isaiah 3:16-24

18. Recognizing the seriousness of the call of Christ upon your life and service, is it your purpose to refrain from all worldly amusements and sinful practices such as: dancing, card-playing, theater attending, novel reading, competitive sports, watching unprofitable television programs, and shunning all other questionable worldly amusements? 1 John 2:15 ; James 1:27; 4:4

19. Do you believe that in 1844 Christ began the Investigative Judgment in the second apartment of the heavenly sanctuary and that He is now ministering as our High Priest? Do you believe that in the Most Holy Place, Christ makes final atonement for our sins, where they will be blotted out if confessed and forsaken? Daniel 8:14; 7:9-14, 7:25-27 ; Leviticus 16

20. Do you believe that the closing gospel message of the three angels is now going to the world; and that under the power of the latter rain, those who have been truly sanctified by Jesus will give the loud cry, calling men and women out of all denominations that constitute Babylon and into God's remnant church- church of the first born? Revelation 14:6-14; 18:1-4 ; Joel 2:28 ; Hosea 10:12

21. Do you recognize that the remnant church has the Spirit of Prophecy, and that in these last days this gift has been especially manifested to the true church through the writings of Ellen G. White? Revelation 12:17; 19:10

22. Do you believe in, and have you accepted the ordinances of humility and the Lord's supper which symbolize the commitment of giving your whole life to Jesus and dying to the old life of sin? Is it your purpose to walk in the footsteps of Jesus? John 13:10-17 ; 1 Corinthians 11:23-33 ; 1 John 2:6

23. Do you believe that conversion is the new birth experience, and that unless you are born of water (the baptism of repentance; forgiveness; justification) and the Spirit (the baptism of obedience; continual cleansing; sanctification) you cannot enter Into the Kingdom of God? John 3:3-5 ; 1 Peter 1:22-23

24. Do you believe in baptism by immersion, and is it your desire to manifest faith and acceptance in the saving grace of our Lord, Jesus Christ by public baptism in the name of Jesus Christ as has been the pure custom in the early church (see Acts 2:37 ; Acts 8:12 ; Acts 10:48 ;& Acts 19:5 ). As evidence of this decision, do you resolve to accept and live by the historic beliefs of the pioneers of the Seventh-Day Adventist church, which are posted at the Our Beliefs section of the World's Last Chance website, and unite with the church of the first born believers of Hebrews 12:18-24 and sever all links, connections and membership with all of today's churches which are fallen in His eyes for having mixed truth with error? Matthew 3:6-17; 28:18-20 ; Colossians 2:12 ; Romans 6:3-5 . END.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Anchored by Messianic Promises (Lesson 7) By: Kay Daigle

God always answers in the deeps, never in
the shallows of our soul.

Words to Anchor Your Soul

“In that day there will be a fountain opened up for the dynasty of David and the people of Jerusalem for sin and impurity.”

Zechariah 13:1 (NET)

Introduction

A “do-over”! Sometimes we get to go back and try again without being penalized in a game when we play with gracious people, but life doesn’t afford us “do-overs.” How we long to be able to go into the past and fix our mistakes! Instead of going back and redoing life, God does provide for our mistakes. He totally forgives our sins and uses even the worst of our mistakes and circumstances for good (Rom. 8:28-29).

Despite the sins of the Jews, which resulted in their exile from the land, God gave them hope and the chance to learn and begin again. He reminded them that His promises to David given long, long before would last forever because they depended upon God’s faithfulness rather than the faithfulness of His people. He promised that One would come whom He had anointed to rule the house of David in glory, whom we now know was Jesus. He promised a future day when justice would prevail and all wrongs would be made right.

Background of the Post-Exilic Prophets: Haggai, Zechariah, and Malachi

We have covered selected studies in the prophets in a somewhat chronological fashion. We spent five weeks reading in the pre-exilic prophets, who spoke before the final exile and destruction of Jerusalem in 586 B.C. Last week we read Lamentations, which detailed the terrible things that occurred when the Babylonians besieged and then destroyed the city.

Ezekiel and Daniel experienced the exile and wrote during that time while in a foreign land. We will not read from their prophecies in this study because of their lengths; hopefully, you can study them in the future.

The Israelites began returning to their land after King Cyrus of Persia decreed that they could go back in 538 B.C.28 The initial group returned under the leadership of Zerubbabel; the second group came with Ezra, the priest, in 458 B.C.; and Nehemiah led the third return in 444 B.C.

This week we will read portions of the three Minor Prophets who prophesied in Jerusalem after the Jews returned to the land: Haggai, Zechariah, and Malachi. The first of the three is Haggai, whose prophecies date to 520 B.C. (Compare with the dates above.) His is a message of priorities. Days Two and Three will be spent reading selected sections of Zechariah; on Day Four you will turn to Malachi. I have included extra stories this week because they were all so good! I hope you take the time to read them all and complete all of your work because I know that it will richly bless your life.

Day One Study

As background for the message of Haggai, we need to read excerpts from the book of Ezra. The first six chapters of Ezra relate what had already occurred in Jerusalem in the eighty years before Ezra arrived there.

Read Ezra 1:1-4.

    1. Write down the “who, what, when, where, why, and how” of this story, or write a “newspaper article” about it.

Diamonds in the Word: Read Ezra 1--6, noting the events and the dates given.

Read Ezra 3:1-8. Note that v. 1-6 occurred during the first year that the first group of returnees was back in Jerusalem under Zerubbabel. Then, there was a two-year break before they began building the temple.

Ezra 4:1-16 tells us that the enemies of the Jews did not want them to finish rebuilding the city and its temple. They used tactics of discouragement and accusation.

Finally, the people stopped work on the temple entirely in 535 B.C. Fifteen years later, in 520 B.C., God spoke to His people in Jerusalem through His prophet Haggai.

Read Haggai 1:1-15.

    2. What was wrong with the priorities of the people, and how had God responded to those misplaced priorities?

Before we move on today with Haggai and his message, read these two stories about women who learned that prioritizing God and His kingdom brings blessing!

Kay S’s Story

In the early spring of 1991, my husband, Terry, came to me and said he believed the Lord was leading us to move to Russia with Campus Crusade for Christ. For the previous two years, he had been traveling in and out of the Soviet Union working with the underground church. Politically, things were rapidly changing and it became apparent that soon Christians would be able to live and work openly.

The week after Terry's announcement, I spent concentrated time with the Lord. He graciously confirmed to me that moving to Moscow was indeed His will for our family.

The six months before we moved were incredibly busy. We sold most of our furniture, our cars and even some of our clothes. As our home slowly emptied out, I began to panic. We had an eight-year-old daughter and a five-year-old son. Not only were Terry and I giving up the comforts of the U.S., but so were our children.

The Soviet Union was still intact when we moved to Moscow in October of 1991. We lived in a cramped, drab Russian apartment. There were days we had no electricity and no hot water. Sometimes we had no water at all. We stood in line in snow and ice to buy bread. Occasionally, we would get close to the front of the line only to have the store close because it had run out of bread. We had no car and for almost a year were completely dependent on public transportation. Our first several months in Moscow I struggled with all we lacked and had given up. We had no car, no conveniences, and sometimes limited food choices. Not only had I had given up most of the things I was so accustomed to, but I also found I had lost most of my personality because I could not communicate. I mostly came across to my Russian neighbors as a mute American woman who could only stare blankly at them as they spoke to me. I felt like the Lord had led me into a material and personal wasteland.

What was the result? Christ blessed our family with four of the most wonderful years we have ever had. We grew closer to each other in ways that would not have been possible in the U.S. As a family, we saw the Lord's hand of blessing and provision over and over again. As time went on, we all slowly learned Russian and became accustomed to life in Moscow. Terry and I were blessed with a fulfilling ministry working alongside godly men and women.

I realized that all the things I had given up by moving to Russia were more than replaced by the Lord. They weren't necessarily replaced by other material things but by spiritual and relational blessings far more valuable.

Dixie’s Story

My favorite thing to do is “nest.” Fixing up my home and making it warm and inviting brings me great joy. In 26 years of marriage, we have lived in 8 cities. Moving meant new decorating! Let the fun begin!

With each move, I would become consumed with getting the house “done.” I would wake up thinking about it, and after getting the kids off to school the car seemed to go straight to the shops. Yes, I had quiet times, attended Bible study, and went to church on Wednesday nights, and Sundays, but the thing that brought me the greatest satisfaction was decorating.

In 1990, we made a move from Nashville to Baltimore. This was one move I did not want to make, but God put it on my heart to trust Him, and to move, looking for ways to serve Him in Baltimore.

Shortly after moving in, the phone rang. The wife of the president of my husband’s company explained that God had put it on her heart to gather a group of women together weekly in her home for prayer and study, and to seek the Lord about starting a city-wide Bible study class for women and their children in Baltimore. I said I’d come, but with hesitation. I had a house to fix up, and kids to get settled, new neighbors to meet.

About ten of us met for several months in prayer. The Lord raised up small group leaders, a teacher, and a church. No one was stepping up to be the Children’s Director. It was surely not to be me because I had three children, ages three, six and nine. I had things to do. But of course, God kept urging me, telling me this was my ministry to women. This was the way I was going to serve Him in this new town.

My three-year-old was in Mother’s Day Out Tuesdays and Thursdays, the only time to “run errands.” Those times were spent, instead, preparing for the upcoming Bible study. The summer was then spent recruiting teachers and gathering supplies for the nursery and preschool children’s classes, putting together arts and crafts projects, and planning little teaching sessions for the older kids. I even attended a leaders’ retreat to learn my role as the children’s director, using my “decorating money” to pay for a baby sitter.

A great number of women and children had signed up for the class, which would start in September. In late August I was getting weary and selfish, tired of planning and preparing. One day I was driving from the host church, after having dropped off a carload of supplies, and I started complaining. “Lord, I don’t want to be doing this! Why did I sign up for this? Two days every week for the next nine months will be consumed with this. I will have to get there early and stay late! Poor, pitiful me!” And very clearly and silently, the Lord impressed on my heart, “My child, on what better thing could you be spending your time?”

And I knew then that I would choose God over things. I knew there was not one single thing that would be better than serving these little children, teaching them about Jesus, singing praise songs with them, presiding over their selfless teachers, serving them crackers and juice, and letting their mothers have precious needed time in Bible study and fellowship with other women.

The first year of this study God provided for every need. I don’t think I ever missed a day. If one of my own children got sick, I don’t remember, they must have been taken care of somehow. I made a multitude of new friends in the faith. I served on a leadership team of older wiser women who impacted my life forever, as I observed their Christ-centered lives. I soaked up Truth as we met as a leaders group. These were some of the benefits to me from choosing God over things.

Young mothers got to be refreshed while being with other women, sharing God’s Word, and hopefully having transformed lives. Perhaps these women, who were served, are serving others today. Perhaps these little children are now shining examples of Christ-centered youth. I will never know the full impact of making this one decision to put God before things. God showed me that life is not about me, but about Him.

Years have come and gone since then and we have moved a few times more. God has continued to provide our family with a perfectly satisfactory nest in which to “fluff up,” and live and share with others. These days, however, my favorite words are becoming “down-size, de-clutter, clean out and throw away!”

“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you” (Matthew 6:33).

    3. Sharing question: Consider your priorities. How do you measure them—in time, in effort, in money? How do misplaced priorities keep you from anchoring your soul in God? Is God showing you that any of yours are out of order through the prophet Haggai?

Read Haggai 2:1-9.

    4. What promises did God give those who built the new temple? Why would these promises have been an encouragement to them?

    5. Responding to God: Write a prayer or poem committing to God as first in your life. If He showed you today that you need to confess any wrong priorities, do so, knowing that God forgives but asks you to repent. Once you confess, it is time to act. What do you need to do? Do you need to write a check for God’s work, go next door and spend time with your neighbor, take your place in ministry, streamline your life, or commit to get up early for time with God?

Day Two Study

Today we will turn our attention to the prophecies of Zechariah, the second of the three post-exilic prophets in Israel. According to Zech. 1:1, God first spoke to the prophet two months after Haggai gave his first prophecy. Ezra 5:1 tells us that it was the words of Haggai and Zechariah that resulted in the resumption of work on the temple!

Dr. Eugene Merrill says this about the message of Zechariah:

“The prophet is concerned to comfort his discouraged and pessimistic compatriots, who are in the process of rebuilding their Temple and restructuring their community but who view their efforts as making little difference in the present and offering no hope for the future .... He challenges members of the restored remnant to go to work with the full understanding that what they do, feeble as it appears, will be crowned with success when YHWH, true to His covenant word, will bring to pass the fulfillment of His ancient promises to the fathers.”29

Diamonds in the Word: Spend time today and tomorrow reading and charting the book of Zechariah as best you can in a limited time.

Read Zechariah 1:1-11.

    6. How did Zechariah rebuke those who returned to the land?

Read Zechariah 7:1-14. This is dated 22 months after the previous visions.

The people asked the priests whether they should continue fasting during the fifth month (7:2-3). This yearly fast was a reminder of and time of lament over the destruction of the temple on August 14, 586 B.C.30 The fast in the seventh month (7:5) “apparently refers to the anniversary of the assassination of Gedaliah, governor of Judah (Jer. 40:13-14; 41:1) in approximately 581 B. C.”31

    7. What do these verses teach you about fasting that is done truly for God?

Read Zechariah 8:1-23.

    8. How do these verses relate to the original question in 7:2-3?

    9. Sharing question: Share your experiences with fasting. What did you do and how did it affect you?

    10. Responding to God: God’s rebuke of the people over their fasting is another example of wrong priorities. They followed religious ritual but ignored issues of the heart. Spend time listening to God. Write down what He tells you about your religious ritual—yes, even in an evangelical church! What do you need to do about it?

Day Three Study

Read Zechariah 12:1-14. The promises concerning Jerusalem have not yet been fulfilled in this way; yet, God is faithful; He anchors His promises in His own faithful character.

We understand some of these verses to be yet future. The day has not come when God has fulfilled all of these promises.

Read Zechariah 13:1, our memory verse.

    12. Compare this verse with Hebrews 10:10-18. Write down your insights.

    13. Sharing question: What does it mean to you that your sins are totally washed away?

Read also Zechariah 14:2-9.

    14. Let’s compare Zechariah’s words with some other verses. Write down any parallels with Zech. 12:1-14; 14:2-8:

    15. Responding to God: Spend time drawing a picture of the coming King in all of His glory. Meditate upon that day and all that it means. Express before God how much you long to see Jesus.

Day Four Study

Today we will read from the book of Malachi, the last of the Old Testament prophets. Although his book is difficult to date, Malachi likely prophesied between 480-470 B.C.32 Dr. Boice says, “The book of Malachi is located at a point of transition, too. It comes at the end of the Old Testament, but it anticipates the New Testament.”33

Read Malachi 1:6-14.

    16. What religious hypocrisy and wrong priorities did Malachi rebuke?

    17. Sharing question: Malachi seems to be rehashing problems that we have seen over and over throughout the prophets’ messages. What sins do you fall into over and over? Where are your weaknesses? Use your small group to make yourself accountable to others. What one thing can you implement in your life to help prevent this recurring sin?

Diamonds in the Word: Read the book of Malachi today and tomorrow, noting God’s comments to the priests, the questions they give in reply, and God’s answers.

Dr. Merrill says that for the people to whom Malachi spoke

“theirs was not the problem of rebuilding the Temple and holy city, for that had long been done by Malachi’s day; rather, it was the issue of holy living and holy service in the aftermath of all the external accomplishments. Malachi, though dead, yet speaks to the modern world about the need to bring performance into line with profession. His message, therefore, is current, especially in light of the coming of the One of whom the prophet so eloquently spoke.”34

Read Malachi 2:13-3:5.

    18. Why did God refuse to honor the offerings of the people and why had He grown tired of their words? How did their profession not line up with their performance?

Two of my friends have shared the difficult stories of their divorces. I so appreciate their willingness to relive that hard part of their lives so that we can see real life examples of why God hates divorce and why He wants us to marry strong believers. God in His grace has brought blessing despite poor choices.

Doris’ Story

I married young – against my parents’ wishes. Without seeking God’s will. It was all me. It was what I wanted.

For 13 years my husband and I did not miss a Sunday in church. I served in various ministries and participated in all the activities. We were faithful in our giving. By all outside appearances we were a “lovely family.” A precious little girl and then God gave us a darling little boy. We were perfect. All was complete, but, Satan was working, gleeful and deceitful. Little by little the years of hurt and pretense began to erode our false façade. My husband became even more controlling and abusive, both physically and emotionally, to me and to the children. I feared for our safety. Finally, I knew that I could not stand by one more day and let anything else happen to the children; after much counseling I filed for divorce.

It was unbelievably hard and during the process I began to turn my anger toward God. After all, if He truly loved me after I had been so faithful to Him how could He let this happen–never mind the fact that I had made a rebellious choice when I married in the first place, not honoring my parents and not honoring God’s presence in my life. For a full year I was so angry with God that I would deliberately take a different street so I wouldn’t drive by my church. It was all His fault, I reasoned–He had let me down. It was all about me. I didn’t go to church and I didn’t teach my children about God.

And then one day God lifted the veil from my eyes and from my heart–praise the Lord. I was watching my children play and like a bolt of lightning, I realized how I was depriving them of loving the Lord–the same Lord who had guided me from the cradle in my precious Christian home and family. A flood of emotion followed and I asked our precious Father for His forgiveness and restoration. And, He has blessed me beyond measure since that day. He has allowed me to see my children accept Him as their Lord and Savior. Praise!

Our Lord God has given us all the tools and He has made us to fit those tools. It’s so simple–all we have to do is acknowledge Him as our Lord and Savior and love Him back the way He loves us. I almost deprived my children of their inheritance from their Heavenly Father and I praise the Lord every day that He had a different plan for them and for me.

He has blessed me with a wonderful godly husband of 22 years and each and every day I thank Him for remembering me when I ignored Him. Praise the Lord!

Sammy’s story

Right after college graduation, I married my high school sweetheart. It was wonderful. We were madly in love and convinced that only “death would us part.” He was the football hero and voted most handsome and most likely to succeed. I was the senior class president and a majorette for the band. We were the perfect couple. We were both believers and went to church every week. After a few months of marriage, we both began graduate school. I taught school and went to school at night. My husband went to school full time.

Somewhere along the line we began living separate lives. We never argued or had unkind words. We simply never talked about anything except what to get at the grocery store and what clothes needed to go to the dry cleaners. I became resentful but never expressed my feelings. My husband worked hard at making wonderful grades, and soon both of us graduated.

He was offered a job a long way from home and we excitedly packed up and moved. I found a job and soon we were both working and making new friends. We both became homesick for family, so after a year we moved back home. Again, both of us got jobs and appeared to be the perfect couple. We never shared our deepest feelings and/or fears. We just rocked along. Then, I broke the marriage vows and started having an affair. Right away I told my husband what I was doing. He divorced me practically on the spot. We didn’t go to marriage counseling; we didn’t discuss why I was doing what I was doing. The marriage was over. Within three months of our divorce, my ex had remarried and they are still married today.

God is gracious, and within five years I was planning another marriage. During this time, I had done a lot of soul searching and Christian counseling. I learned that I was a baby Christian and that God hated divorce. I began growing spiritually and started attending a Bible-based church. I had such guilt and wished I could talk with my ex and apologize for the pain I had caused both of us.

Today I am happily married with children. I have been forgiven much, but my divorce still haunts me. I wish I didn’t have to explain that part of my life to our children. I pray they will not go through divorce. I am a different person now. I understand a lot better now that what I did years ago was a symptom of a bigger problem, but divorce does carry life-long consequences. I wouldn’t recommend it.

    19. Sharing question: These two women experienced the terrible ordeal of divorce, as a consequence of their own choices. Although the children of Israel experienced the ordeal of captivity and of returning to a land that they no longer ruled because of their choice to ignore God, He continued to give them hope for the future because of His loyal love and faithfulness to His promises of old. How does that encourage you today?

Read Malachi 3:6-15.

    20. What do you learn about the character of God in 3:6 that gives you hope and anchors you when you find yourself far from God?

    21. Describe the attitudes of the people. How are they similar to those you see in people today?

Read Malachi 3:16-4:6. Malachi’s words did impact some of the people.

    22. Responding to God: Ask God to use His word to continue to speak to you, just as He used it in Malachi’s day.

Day Five Study

It may be hard to believe, but today is your last day of study! I pray that God has used His Word to anchor your soul more firmly in Him. You may face mighty storms but your anchor will hold you tightly and keep you close to the One who loves you more than you can even imagine!

Read Psalm 50.

    23. Compare the message in this psalm with what you read in these three prophets this week.

    24. Sharing question: What line of this psalm speaks to you today? Why?

    25. Sharing question: How have the words of the various prophets that we have studied for the past seven weeks impacted you?

    26. Sharing question: You have read the stories of women throughout this study. Think of what God has done for you while you have studied with your small group this semester. Write out your own story of God’s work in your life during this time period. Write it in detail and be ready to read it to your group. If you would, send it to me so that I have it to share with future groups of women as well! (Your name can be totally confidential. Only I will know who you really are. I often change the names of women who give me these stories. Some of the names in this study are not the real names, but the stories are!)

    27. Responding to God: Write a prayer thanking God for all He has taught you this semester, for your small group, and for the coming King!

I hope that you have been blessed by the study of these prophets and psalms. May you continue to hunger and thirst for the things of God!

Works Cited

Boice, James Montgomery. The Minor Prophets, 2 vol. Grand Rapids, MI: Baker Books, 2002.

Chisholm, Robert B., Jr. Handbook on the Prophets. Grand Rapids, MI: Baker Academic, 2002.

Merrill, Eugene H. Haggai, Zechariah, Malachi: An Exegetical Commentary. Biblical Studies Press, 2003.

NET Bible: New English Translation. Biblical Studies Press, L.L.C., 2003.

Radmacher, Earl, Ronald B. Allen, H. Wayne House, eds. Nelson’s New Illustrated Bible Commentary, eds. Nashville, TN: Thomas Nelson Publishers, 1999.

Spurgeon, Charles H. The Treasury of David: Spurgeon’s Classic Word on the Psalms Abridged in One Volume, Abridged by David O. Fuller. Grand Rapids, MI: Kregel Publications, 1976.


28 Eugene H. Merrill, Haggai, Zechariah, Malachi: An Exegetical Commentary (Biblical Studies Press, 2003), 12.

29 Merrill, 82.

30 Note #5 in the NET Bible, 1671.

31 Note #6 in the NET Bible, 1671.

32 Merrill, 329.

33 Boice, 572.

34 Merrill, 321.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Anchored during Times of Grief (Lesson 6) By: Kay Daigle

Satan, like a fisher, baits his hook according
to the appetite of the fish.
THOMAS ADAMS

Words to Anchor Your Soul

“The LORD’s many kindnesses never cease,
for his great compassion never comes to an end.
They are renewed every morning;
Your faithfulness is abundant!
I said to myself, ‘The LORD is the portion of my inheritance;
Therefore, I will put my hope in him.’”

Lamentations 3:22-24 (NET)

Introduction

Most of us have experienced grief in some form: some have dealt with death; others with divorce; many with loss of health or friends. Loss involves grief, which is the natural response. As I have watched Christians deal with various losses over the years, it seems that too often we do not encourage grief, but instead we praise those who cover their feelings of sorrow. We seem to think that is a measure of their faith. We look at others and say, “She is doing so well. She is so strong!” and make it difficult for her to be real. Then, when we deal with it ourselves, we are afraid to show our grief, thinking we lack faith. As a result, often the storm of loss and grief causes many believers to drift away from God.

The New Illustrated Bible Commentary says this about Lamentations: “Rather than explaining away pain, the book helps us face pain. By avoiding cheery clichés, the Book of Lamentations provides companionship for those who are suffering and plants seeds of hope for rebuilding after the suffering is over.”23

This week we meet someone grieving over the loss of his nation, his place of worship, and most of his people. Hopefully, studying this book will help anchor us by helping us grieve well ourselves when we encounter loss.

Background of Lamentations

For the past five weeks we have studied prophets who preached before the destruction of Jerusalem and the captivity of the people of the southern kingdom of Judah. Most of them prophesied of these events but did not live to see them. In 586 B.C., the city and the temple were destroyed by the Babylonians. The book of Lamentations is the author’s outpouring of grief and sorrow because of those experiences.

Although the author is not named in the book, tradition says that the prophet Jeremiah wrote it, and we know that he did experience the destruction firsthand. The Septuagint, the Greek translation of the Hebrew text, attributes it to Jeremiah. On the other hand, the arrangement of the Hebrew Bible suggests that someone else wrote it.24

The structure of the book involves five poems, of which the first four are written in an acrostic form. That means that each stanza of each of those poems begins with the next letter of the Hebrew alphabet. (If they were written in English, the first stanza would begin with “A”, the second with “B”, and so on.) Each of the first four poems has twenty-two stanzas, and the fifth has twenty-two verses but not in acrostic form.25 Not all modern English translations make this clear by looking at the text. If that is true of your Bible, you may want to read it in the NET Bible so that you can better see the structure.26

Day One Study

Read Jeremiah 52:1-16, Jeremiah’s account of the destruction of Jerusalem.

    1. Describe the events that accompanied the fall of Jerusalem.

Diamonds in the Word: Make a book chart of Lamentations, or read Deut. 28, in which Moses warned the children of Israel of the consequences of failing to ally their lives with God’s. Parallel his warnings with what you read in Jeremiah 52 and Lamentations.

Read Lamentations 1, the first of the five poems. Note that the poem includes words that come from the prophet himself and those that suggest that the city is speaking.

    2. Consider the poetic language in Lamentations 1 and the straightforward account you read in Jeremiah 52. How does the poetry affect your feelings differently than the prose? What does Lam. 1 add to your description of the destruction in question #1?

    3. Poetic language paints a visual picture for us. What visual picture of what happened to Jerusalem hits you hardest? Why?

    4. Sharing question: With which picture of grief and sorrow do you most identify? Why?

    5. Responding to God: Write a prayer that you will never so rebel against God and his desire for your best that he is forced to bring disaster into your life as the only way to get through to you. Pray for a soft heart, open to the voice of His Spirit.

Day Two Study

Read Lamentations 2.

    6. The pictures of the siege and the effects on the people are difficult to read. Which picture in this chapter is most sad and difficult for you as you think about what happened to these people?

    7. The prophets (these called themselves prophets of Yahweh, the God of Israel) had falsely prophesied, according to Lam. 2:14. Read the following passages, and write down your insights into how the prophets were misleading the people.

    a. Micah 3:5-8 (You read it a couple of weeks ago.)

    b. Jeremiah 23:16-22

Diamonds in the Word: Find other references in your Bible to prophets who are falsely speaking, claiming to speak for God. If you did the Diamonds in the Word a few weeks back, you already looked at 2 Peter 2. Use your concordance to find others. You may use the word prophet(s), false, or even speak. What additional things do you learn?

The grief expressed by the author involved a recognition that the people went forward in defiance of God, bringing these terrible things on themselves.

    8. Sharing question: When you see loss and hardship because of consequences that someone has brought on herself, do you grieve over what she suffers or do you harden your heart because the person “deserves it”? What do you learn from the author of Lamentations about that?

    9. Responding to God: Write a prayer or a poem expressing grief over the loss with which someone you know is dealing right now. If you cannot feel that grief, pray for God’s heart in the matter. Write a note to the person sharing your encouragement.

Day Three Study

Read Lamentations 3:1-20, which describes the author’s personal grief over the city and its inhabitants. Remember that he was using figurative language and may not have physically experienced all of the things he mentioned, but they may simply describe how he felt.

    10. Which picture of the author’s grief most intensely affects you? Why?

Diamonds in the Word: Read John 11, considering it from the perspective of grief. What do you learn?

Read Lamentations 3:19-33.

In Lam. 3:21, the author’s feelings and thoughts seem to change. The New Illustrated Commentary calls 3:22-24 “the beacon of light in the midst of disintegration.”27 The author moves here from grief and depression to hope. These are this week’s Words to Anchor Your Soul. Memorize them so they can light your way when you face painful and sorrowful situations.

    11. Sharing question: Why might Lam. 3:22-24 anchor you if you faced this kind of situation?

    12. Compare Lam. 3:28-30 with Heb. 12:7-13. What can you learn about dealing with times of discipline from God (like these times were)?

    13. Sharing question: Have you ever dealt with a time when God made it clear that He was bringing discipline into your life to get you to turn around to Him? If so, describe it and how you dealt with it.

Read Lamentations 3:34-66.

    14. The author based much of what he said on the character of God. What did he reveal here about who God is and what He is like? What difference did it seem to make to him?

    15. Sharing question: Describe a time in your life when you dealt with depression or grief. How long did it last? How did God work in your life through it?

    16. Responding to God: Pray through Lam. 3:22-33 for yourself or someone dealing with a time of grief or difficulty. Write down your thoughts below.

Day Four Study

Read Lamentations 4, which provides more visual pictures of what befell Jerusalem.

    17. What details about the situation in Jerusalem did the author add here to what he said in the previous chapters?

Diamonds in the Word: Read in your Bible resources about the destruction of Jerusalem by the Babylonians.

    18. Wrong thinking can destroy us by causing us to act wrongly. What deceptive thinking did the author mention that misled the people of Jerusalem into believing that they would not be conquered?

Read Lamentations 5, the only chapter that is not an acrostic. It is written as the author’s prayer to God.

    19. In this prayer what did the author ask God to do? How did he end his prayer?

It seems to me that the book of Lamentations is a great picture of what true grief looks like. There are times of immense sorrow when tears and heaviness are our companions (Lam. 1:1--3:20). We turn to God and hope revives (Lam. 3:21-33), but grief isn’t over and begins to invade our hearts once again (Lam. 3:34--4:22). Even when we pray, we pray out of both hope and despair (Lam. 5).

    20. Sharing question: Share about a period of grief in your life and how it parallels this description. If you have never experienced this kind of grief, write down what you have seen in the lives of others.

    21. Responding to God: Write a prayer about a difficult situation in your life right now. Write out specifically what is happening and how you feel, just as the author of Lamentations did in the final chapter.

Day Five Study

Read Psalm 77. The psalmist deals with his feelings of depression. Although he does not give the causes, his feelings are very similar to those reflected in Lamentations.

Diamonds in the Word: Outline this psalm.

    22. Describe the psalmist’s feelings.

    23. How does the psalmist show faith in God in the midst of feeling abandoned and forgotten?

    24. What parallels do you see in this psalm to the book of Lamentations?

    25. Sharing question: The NET Bible translation of Psalm 77:6c says this: “I tried to make sense of what was happening.” This is when faith gets tricky, because we are not always able to do so. Share about a time in your life when you tried to make sense of what was happening but could not. How did you keep faith alive?

    26. Responding to God: Write your own short psalm based on the outline of this one. Just write a line or two on each subject. Begin with a cry to God; write about your true feelings about a difficult situation that you experienced at some point; lay out your questions before God; and then list some of His great deeds.

We have two stories again this week. Both deal with difficult situations where women cried out to God, knowing that He alone could help. He was truly an anchor for their souls in extremely trying times, when they were so low they could not go on without Him. In all such situations, we deal not only with the struggle of the situations, but we also deal with the grief of loss.

Denise’s Story

We went through a very difficult time with our son. He had to be in control of everything. He would rage and meltdown frequently. Our family was in shambles because of the instability of his moods – fine when things were good and TERRIBLE when things were bad. In searching for answers, we tried medication which helped in the day, but at night it was like letting loose a spring that had been held down for a long time. The Lord led us to a woman, a believer, who had experience in this area and worked with us to do a home-based intensive therapy. In this type of therapy, the child learns that the parent is in charge, and he (the child) is not in charge, and this actually builds closeness and attachment. We had intense time together with no outside activities. And it was incredibly stressful as we worked through the rebellion that comes with this kind of a shift. I did not sleep well and would often wake up at 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning, unable to go back to sleep.

One morning about two weeks into the program, after having a terrible night’s sleep, I rose early alone and went outside. I truly did not know how I was going to make it through the day. I was wasted before it began. I felt that my well was totally dry; I had nothing left to give. As I prayed, He graciously gave me the passage from John 4:14, where Jesus tells the woman at the well that He is the Living Water. I knew that His strength, His Living Water would carry me through the day. And He did.

A week or so later the Lord was also immediately there in a time of despair. I went to church alone, one of the few times I got out of the house in the week, and my husband stayed home. It felt good to be refreshed by the songs of praise and words of encouragement in the sermon. But when I got home, things were falling apart and had been raging for almost two hours. My heart sank as I cried out to the Lord, not knowing how to pray. But the Holy Spirit brought to my mind the verse that He intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words (Romans 8:26). The Lord took over again. I knew I could trust Him to work this together for His good.

The Lord had prepared me for this time by leading me to begin memorizing James 1 before the troubles even began. “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all men generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.” Time after time I have seen His faithfulness. He is the rock. And He is always there. He promises to never leave us or forsake us.

We are still on the journey. He encourages us in Isaiah that those who WAIT ON THE LORD (emphasis mine) will renew their strength . . . We are waiting on the Lord and finding Him faithful and He is and will be glorified by His mighty works.

Jennifer’s Story

I was diagnosed with colon cancer at the age of 32. I had 3 children under the age of 5. My tumor was too big to remove, so I did chemo and radiation before surgery. After my body recovered, I had surgery to remove what was left of the tumor and the surrounding lymph nodes. I then started more chemo in hopes of killing any cancer that might still be growing in my body! I had to have a temporary colostomy bag for 3 months so that the area where the tumor had been could heal. Then, I had surgery again to "put me back together." Things were fine for about 2 weeks until I started having intense cramping and vomiting. The area where surgery #2 took place had filled with scar tissue and nothing was passing through. At 7 weeks post-surgery, I went back in for my 3rd surgery.

My oncologist said that there was no way that my body could handle another round of chemo. He said in the "big picture" it wouldn't make much of a difference. For now, I have to recover from this surgery, give my body time to start working again, and gain weight. (Never thought I would hear those orders from a doctor!)

One thing that I have been reminded of in all of this is that God is good—REGARDLESS. God is good—regardless of whether or not my cancer comes back. God is good—regardless of whether all of our prayers are answered the way I want them to be. God is good—no matter what He chooses to do, whether this is the end of my cancer battle or just the beginning. So many blessings have come from the past 9 1/2 months. I know that God is sovereign, and He is still on His throne! Of course, I hope this is the end of my cancer. I will just take it one day at a time. God has a plan—this did not take Him by surprise. I am honored to be a part of His plan, and I will do my best to honor Him no matter what that plan is.

I have been so humbled during this time just knowing that the God of the universe is concerned about me. I have never felt more loved and more cherished than I have in the last 9 months. God certainly has bigger issues to deal with than me, and yet, I have felt like I was just sitting in the palm of His hand this whole time.

It has definitely been a trying time. Like with any trial, no one truly understands unless they have been there. A friend, whose husband has battled cancer for nearly 10 years, summed it up best when she said, "Even on your best days, it is still so hard." This has been the hardest 9 months of my life. I am so blessed to have a wonderful husband, family and friends to carry me and help me through this. On my lowest days, someone would unexpectedly brighten my day in one way or another.

There isn't a “thank you note” big enough for all others have done! I have been bathed in love and kindness. I never thought joy and blessings would come from cancer, but they did. It was not always easy to be on the receiving end of it all; it is much easier to help than to just accept it yourself. But, I have been so blessed.

When I was first diagnosed, I told Jeff, “It is time for God to show up and show off,” and He certainly did that!!!!!


23 Radmacher, 947.

24 Chisholm, 216-217.

25 Chisholm, 217.

26 You can access the New English Translation (NET Bible) free online at www.bible.org.

27 Radmacher, 947.

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